SOTIRAZ
Book one – Seeking Panacea
This book and its creator are a work in progress.
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I’d do it all over again
I had to cut you off. I was told, “it feels like I used you,” during one of the most vulnerable times in my life. It cut me to my core. But I am the one who opened myself up to someone during that vulnerable time. I will take responsibility for that. I have to…
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Joy
The ecstatic high and bliss that comes with the hope of getting into a show after an audition is one of the most joyous feelings.
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From Rachael to Rae
When I was 12 years old my family moved from Salem to Tualatin, Oregon. I was scared, going from elementary school to middle school with no friends, but I saw an opportunity to reinvent myself. So I changed my name from Rachael to Rae. At the beginning of every class on the first day of…
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Guatemala
I recently had the opportunity to travel to Guatemala, a country whose beauty and diversity are surpassed only by the beauty and diversity of the folks who live there. The experience was life changing. I recommend some of the many museums in Guatemala City, like the Museo Popal Vue and the Museo Ixchel del Traje…
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A View of Kypchally
Ink and graphite on paper. 2025
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Grateful in 2025
I sit here in privilege this 2025. Where other years were scarce, 2024 was abundant for me. With the momentum of getting out of tough situation I launched myself to where I am now, still poor by capitalistic standards but on a journey to better mental, emotional, and physical health. I’m incredibly grateful to be…
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A Small Kindness
Somewhere along the way, someone showed you a small kindness. They didn’t know it, but they helped you pass an unsurmountable obstacle. Their kindness changed you and made you a different, better human being. Do they wake up in the morning, get their coffee, and realize they’ve made the world a better place?
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A Shifted Perception
I’ve had this image in my mind as a metaphor for life for a couple of decades now, and it recently shifted. As human beings we all hang off the side of this cliff we call life. As we climb the cliff, we sometimes stop in caves to rest. Sometimes we stay in the caves…
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We Seek Panacea
We seek to feed ourselves. We seek something to numb the pain and we seek relief. We seek sanctuary. We seek to be whole. We seek healing and connection. We seek to cure what ails us. We seek Panacea.
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I Still Remembered
I still remembered how it felt when the warm blood from my father’s last words spattered on my face. “There are infinite ways the forest can kill you.”
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Luca and Filix Hide from the Hunters
My most recent illustration for Sotiraz. Ink and graphite on paper.
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Far Away from the Permitted and Well-traveled Paths of the Forest
Far away from the permitted and well-traveled paths of the forest, hidden in a grove of dark orange fan trees, I stood on a branch that was more familiar to me than any friend. The bark was smooth and worn down from all the times I sat there. I snuck back there often when I could, to…
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Could the Sotiraz Planet Exist in our Universe?
Let’s call the Sotiraz world Planet A. Planet A is in a tidally locked orbit around Star A, much like how our moon is with Earth. Only a sliver of Planet A would be hospitable to life, as the back side would be too cold, and the front side would be too hot. There are…
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Forever Editing
When do I stop editing? Every round I see the grammar mistakes, and the ways to improve the structure of the sentences and paragraphs. I want to take Sotiraz as far as I can before hiring a professional to edit. Every round of edits I think, this one will be my last. And perhaps this…
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Third Person to First Person
I have recently decided to change the point of view of Sotiraz from third person to first person. In my previous drafts, I imagined one of the main characters telling the story to someone in the future. But now I want the reader to get a more personalized perspective. I’m finding it easier to write…
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“You followed us?” Filix asked and his hand tightened around the hilt of his knife.
“We would not normally follow anyone in the physical sense but we have limited methods of travel at the moment and we are out of time,” Oram said.
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Diving into the Sea of Judicium
Ink and graphite on paper. I gave it a red tint digitally, so it accurately portrayed the red color of the Sotiraz atmosphere.
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The roar of falling water…
The roar of falling water drowned out their footsteps as they descended into the abyss. Some of the sparkling eleron that floated down from the heavens illuminated the circular walls of foamy water that cascaded around them. Their skin glistened from the mist and stray water drops that escaped the falls.
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Amyn
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I am no one
“Why would you follow me? I am no one, nothing,” Luca said. “Nothing?” Janus repeated and his brow lifted in surprise. “Alethi’s words planted a seed in you. Even the tiniest of seeds can grow into a giant Dy tree, a tree that separates and connects worlds. You say you are nothing but Luca you are…
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Luca falls into a freechi, a doorway to Penumbra
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Freechi
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Alethi proves his flight to Penumbra and brings the elders soil.
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Far away from the permitted and well-traveled paths of the forest…
Far away from the permitted and well-traveled paths of the forest, hidden in a grove of dark orange fan trees, Luca stood on a branch that was more familiar to her than any friend. The bark was smooth and worn down from all the times she sat there. She snuck back there often, when she could, to…
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Working on a new illustration
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